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(no subject) [Jul. 12th, 2011|08:34 pm]
panda_girl
[Current Mood |disappointeddisappointed]

 Due to the lack of employment, I have just had to drop out of the counseling program at the local college. I'm finding it a little harder to cope with than I thought. Add on a stubborn ten pounds that after two months of exercising and eating well still refuses to leave, it's a tough mental spot to be in at the moment. 

But tomorrow is another day...
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Updatey Goodness [Nov. 10th, 2010|01:48 pm]
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[Current Location |desk]
[Current Music |radio playing]

 Well, seeing as it's been forever since I've updated my lj, I figured now would be a good time...as a lot is happening right now. 

Family stuff: My grandfather was honored at his church for being a World War II veteran (he fought on Iwo Jima and was shot in the arm while digging a foxhole on the beach). Zach and I went to the ceremony, thinking it to be a "stand up, clap hands, sit back down" type of recognition but no...it was so much better. Apparently there is a program that if you write in to your Congressman and request a flag for a veteran, they will fly an American flag over the capital building in DC in honor of that veteran. At the end of the day, they take it down, fold it and send it to that veteran. So the church did this for my grandfather and presented him with the flag and the certificate of authenticity (his flag flew on August 27, 2010). He was so touched by this...I've never seen him cry like that before! 

On the same day as my grandfather being recognized, my father calls me to tell me that he and my stepmother are splitting up. It's not the first time he has said this but I must admit, it was the first time he sounded so serious about it. I felt bad for him of course and I called my Aunt last night to check on him...he was out with his wife having dinner and going back home so they could talk things out. I'm glad he told me about the situation but I just wish he wouldn't make it sound so terrible and final when it's not. 

And grandmom is...well, being grandmom. 

Personal Stuff: A lot going on here. First, I've been job searching for the last two months. Full time, part time...doesn't matter. I'm am so burnt out from my current job and need something new, with more hours and a boss that trusts me. The other reason I'm looking for a better job is because I want to go back to school for my master's degree in a career degree program. I'm applying at Lancaster Bible College for the Professional Counseling program. I just got word that they're still waiting for my transcripts and two letters of reference but everything else is in and ready to go. Now, I just need a job to pay for the student loans. 

And, this most everyone knows anyway, I'm leaving for the Dominican Republic with my mom and Kathy on Friday afternoon. We're going to stay in Philly since our flight is early on Saturday morning. Seven days in what looks like a beautiful resort. I can't wait to hit the hydrotherapy spa and the free form pool that winds from the lobby down to the beach with jacuzzi stops along the way. I am going to seriously miss my hubby during this time and that's the only downer to the trip. I get so excited and then realize he'll be staying home. But he's been such a sweetheart and has encouraged and supported me 100% during the planning stage. 

And so this concludes my update...I am not dead, just crazy busy...or maybe just crazy. ;-) 
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Am Back and Busy [Aug. 4th, 2010|09:28 am]
panda_girl
[Current Mood |cheerfulcheerful]

Well, it's been awhile since I posted an update and I figured I should. Alot of things have been happening around here.

First, had an awesome vacation! Loved being out in Northern California and seeing that land. Zach and I just got our pictures yesterday from snapfish and we've been going through them for albums and scrapbooks. Beautiful pictures and wonderful memories. 

Second, I had a fantastic birthday! I turned the big 30 and Zach just made it an awesome day. He bought me a Barnes and Noble Nook, took me out for my birthday sushi and then (as if that wasn't enough) he took me to see Joseph at Sight and Sound Theater. It was an awesome day for sure.

Third, I have another vacation to look forward (thanks to my mom's gift for my 30th birthday-financial help towards this trip) to with my mom and her friend Kathy. We are going to an all inclusive resort in Punta Cana which is in the Dominican Republic. We're leaving in November and I can't wait!

Fourth, work related news. I'm working for Shari this week while she's on vacation and everything that could go wrong has so far. But I've also spent the last week and half searching the classifieds for another job. We'll see what I can scare up.

That's the update for now! This weekend the plan is to take part in our community yard sale on Saturday, go out to a very nice Mexican restaurant Saturday night and then off to Longwood Gardens on Sunday in celebration of our sixth anniversary. Six years...they flew by and the honeymoon still isn't over! ;-)  
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Why? [May. 27th, 2010|05:57 pm]
panda_girl
[Current Location |couch]
[Current Mood |annoyedannoyed]
[Current Music |radio]

 I would love to know why people who have kids assume that people who don't, do not have stress. 

I mentioned to my boss this week how busy and stressed Zach and I have been these past couple months and she says to me "At least you don't have three kids!" and again today when I mentioned how much I was looking forward to my vacation, I get "what do you have to be stressed about?" 

Just because I don't have kids does not mean I magically repel stress, it just means I have a different kind of stress. And I understand that kids bring a whole boat load of stress onto a person but, I hate to say it, you brought it on yourself! You decided to have kids...own up to the good and bad that comes with that. I didn't ask for a hard to deal with grandmother, health issues and a horrible accident that happened to my husband. Now, stress from my job is manageable because I can say "no" when I get too overwhelmed and if I don't, shame on me. 

*huff* Vent over...
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Confuzzled: A Permanent State [May. 16th, 2010|08:37 pm]
panda_girl
[Current Location |couch]
[Current Mood |blankblank]
[Current Music |TV: Dog the Bounty Hunter]

 Well, I'm in a weird mood and have been for a while. I'm not unhappy but I'm not quite happy. It's like I'm stuck somewhere between sad and joyful...like I'm just here. Blah.

A lot of good things have happened. I went four weeks without acupuncture and didn't one problem! I'm back to being able to eat salsa, fresh tomatoes, bell peppers and...ta-da...yesterday I ate my first piece of pizza in over eight months! It's been wonderful! Another good thing was Zach and I worked on a pro-Creation (not to be confused with procreation *wink*) brochure that we planned to hand out in front of a Museum in Lancaster that was hosting an evolutionary exhibit. Zach and I had visited the Museum a couple weeks ago and were just flabbergasted at how one sided and flat out wrong they had been in their exhibits. 

Now, let me make one thing clear...I don't care if people choose to believe in evolution and want to have exhibits about it. But please, for the love of good science, make sure the evidence is sound. There are two different types of evolution, macro (large scale) and micro (small scale). There was a matching game for kids where they are to match up different finches that have different types of beaks. They are claiming that this variation in bead structure is proof of evolution. The problem is this...change in beak structure is microevolution. It does not prove macroevolution...that one species can change into another completely different species. Anyway, Zach and I wrote up a brochure, made 200 copies and passed them out on Saturday...all 200 copies! People were very polite, no one was nasty or rude. It really was a wonderful experience. 

But it seems like for every good thing that has happened, something else has happened that has sucked the joy out the experience. Grandmom is the regular mess she always is and she keeps trying to pull me down with her. My mom is so busy I can't even get a hold of her. Pop has been in an argumentative mood for the last couple weeks. So to try to reduce the stress, Zach and I took today and decided to not do anything but what we wanted to do: sleep, eat and go for a walk through the woods. What happened? We slept in, trimmed hedges, I had to show an apartment to a royal jerk, went grocery shopping and had to field a call from my grandmother who couldn't get a hold of my mom to tell her my Pop is sick again and needs to go to the doctor. So much for relaxing today. 

I also just launched my own jewelry store on Etsy. I love the designs that I came up with but I'm worried that I'm just going to fall flat on my face. We'll just have to wait and see. I'll keep designing and making and posting and see if this goes anywhere. I so hope it will. 

So my mood...up and down so much that now, I'm just kind of...here. Wherever that is. 
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Good News from a Friend [May. 9th, 2010|10:02 pm]
panda_girl
[Current Location |bed]
[Current Mood |confusedconfused]
[Current Music |none]

I just spoke with a friend of mine from college who lives in South Carolina. She and her hubby were married last April and she just told me they're expecting a baby! I am really happy for her. She's one of those women who just loves to take care of those around her and for as long as I've known her, she's wanted a family. So I was very pleased to get that phone call. 

However, listening to her talk about her pregnancy made me wonder why I don't have any positive feelings  or desire whatsoever about having children. I try to keep reassuring myself that there's nothing wrong with me but I can't help but feel like oddball. Well, maybe tomorrow when I get rid of this terrible headache and it stops being Mother's Day I'll feel more like child-free self. 
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Trip Planning! [Apr. 9th, 2010|08:36 am]
panda_girl
[Current Location |couch]
[Current Mood |busybusy]
[Current Music |TV: Reba]

Zach and I are in full swing in our trip planning! We have our plane tickets and some hotel/camp site reservations taken care of. Hopefully by the end of the weekend we'll have all our reservations done and then we can start gathering stuff together like clothes and equipment.  Zach and I did go up to Harrisburg last weekend to the Bass Pro Shop (an experience everyone should have at least once!) and bought some clothes and gear. We still need to get a tent and a compact campfire stove. 

I am so excited about this trip! I've been starting to feel kind of burned out...you know? Just tired of the everyday drama with work, family and stuff. It's going to be so nice to just leave and be far away, nothing to do but relax, play hard and have fun! 

Zach and I are thinking of doing a blog about the planning of this trip and, of course, the trip itself. There are a few places along the way that have WiFi where we can update the blog as we travel through Norther Cali. Anyone out there have a favorite blog site that they recommend for something like this? 
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Over due Update [Mar. 25th, 2010|09:48 pm]
panda_girl
[Current Mood |cheerfulcheerful]

 I just realized it's been a while since I updated my journal and a lot has happened since I updated! 

First of all, the law suit from Zach's accident settled! Yay! I'm so happy that we can finally put this behind us once and for all now! 

Second, I have turned my back on PC's...love live the Mac! I got a MacBook Pro and am loving it. I'm still learning how to do things (and a special thanks to Nyse for teaching me how to scroll!) but I'm loving it so much. I am now a proud member of the Mac cult. ;-)

Thirdly, now that I'm back getting acupuncture regularly I'm able to eat and keep my food down. I have dropped a lot of weight but I'm starting to gain some back thankfully. I'm also starting to feel more and more like myself instead of just tired all the time.

Fourthly, I'm trying to learn (well, continue to learn) how to deal with my grandmother. She's gone full swing into guilt mode and some days it's harder for me to keep my sanity. But I have a great motivation for learning how to not let her bother me...if I don't get upset, my stomach doesn't get upset. It's definitely something to work towards. 

Finally, I've been working on a story that I've outlined extensively and am loving as I write it. It is a fan fiction but you know, I've figured out that if writing fan fiction makes me happy, I'll keep doing it and enjoy it! 

So I guess that's the short update.

Yay!  
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Crashed and Burned [Mar. 8th, 2010|09:16 pm]
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[Current Location |office]
[Current Mood |creativecreative]
[Current Music |none]

Well, my lap top has gotten another virus on it and it's going to take $80 to fix it. I just spent $300 on the thing back in October and I just don't know about putting more money into it if it's just going to keep getting viruses. Thankfully, Zach feels the same way so we've been looking into getting a Mac iBook. The only problem is money...we really don't have that much to buy a new one and I'm leary of buying a used one. It really bummed me out because I was almost done writing a summary for a Twilight story but now I can't get to it. I'm really smaking my head about it too...it was very indepth and even had dialogue that I wanted to use. But I forged on with the story today on the desktop and I really like the beginning of it. I have a sinking feeling it's going to be epic though. Look out Stephnie Meyer...there's a new vamp writer on the scene! Just kidding...
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Another Night and Another Day [Mar. 4th, 2010|06:15 pm]
panda_girl
[Current Location |couch]
[Current Mood |exhaustedexhausted]

Well, acupuncture worked for a day...blah. I had an awful night last night. A marathon from 12:30 to 5:30. But I'm feeling better today, I got my hair cut but I'm still really tired. I'm hoping for a better night tonight since I drank my meals all day today.

Gah...just, gah.
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